I think it should be socially acceptable for women not to wear bras and for boys to wear coverup. If we have to conceal our pimples they should too.

I'd rather be dead than be so spineless.

seriously? I don't get any respect. ever. fuck you!

I really hate this school year. I feel completely isolated from everyone. Maybe in part I did that to myself, but I guess I'd rather be alone than constantly surrounded by superficiality.

I always, always ruin my electronics. I have them for about a good week before they're broken and my beautiful new laptop is no different. I opened it when I got home and there is a mighty crack down the screen. I don't know how it got there. It's like an intenal puncture.

I hate working SO MUCH. I really can't stand it anymore. Same thing everyday. I will never survive in the real world. The one day a week when I'm not either working at Deerfield or Sen. Biden's is Ambassador's Board meetings. I used to look forward to them! Now, I hate them and I'm pissed. Why would Mrs. Jones ask Emily and Andrea to be co-coordinators? Emily didn't even come to shit last year and Andrea is NEW. What the fuck?

I really hate suck ups and I really hate my AP classes. I really hate all of my classes. Why does the lounge always smell so bad?

seriously I AM FUCKING OVER SELF ABSORBED ASSHOLE PEOPLE. You are not the only person in the world. When you call someone your friend you're not supposed to fucking abuse them. I watch your back, you stab mine. what the FUCK. I'm done. I'm over every single person who pretends to be my friend. Seriously done. I'm done trying so hard to look out for people and to help them. I don't fucking use people. It's not fair, boys are always put ahead of me. When you have a friend you don't treat them like a piece of shit. Especially when you have a friend willing to make other people mad to protect you. You don't fucking USE me when you feel like you need a crying shoulder. fuck you, cry on the shoulder that put you in that position. you're wasting my time, you'll be with him again anywway. fuck you
I wish you would stop pretending so goddamn much. just grow the fuck up and get over yourselves.

you know what I think?
you can't list "photography" in your interests section if you only like to take pictures of yourself.

can I please have a real family
real friends
a real life

No one is going to graduate unless they plan on going to UD next fall. I can't stand all of my friends leaving!


I "used to be the girl that didn't get down because of random stuff." It's been an incredibly stressful year, sorry?

I'm disheartened - I feel like this was the year to make things happen, this was the year to make myself better. To look better on paper, to be better as a person. It didn't happen. I didn't do anything, but I didn't waste my time on senseless things. I slept. I slept my whole junior year away and I cried.

I wasted. I didn't make an impact. The only times I felt solid or excited this year were the times when I wasn't even with the girls in my class. I was with the seniors. Or I was counting the days until Tom came home or I went there. I lived for a few moments insteading of living in all of the moments.

And even those moments were wasted. Those girls are leaving. Tom will leave again too. We won't be together forever.

I lost my zest, all I ever want is to watch movies and sleep. I hardly even ask to go out anymore. But somehow, I'm still being put down everyday for being too selfish, too lazy.

I've decided it isn't possible to be friends with selfish people any longer. It just really bothers me that some people can be so completely self-absorbed, ALL THE TIME! In my opinion it's just a weak characteristic, in addition to being bad manners. I mean that when you're so selfish all the time, you inevitably use horrible manners.

Well anyway, I've come to a decision that I'm leaving selfish people in the dust!